Sunday, September 19, 2010

8 months

I never thought we would see this month on the waitlist.  When we originally started...the wait time was 4 months for a child over 12 months.  We assumed that since we were open to a child up through 15 months that we would wait around 4 months.  We have now doubled that time.

There are moments that are really difficult....hard to explain but it just feels like someone is missing all the time.  We constantly think of her and are trying to enjoy this time because we know our lives will change but it is still hard.

And even though I think crazy thoughts about this even being God's will or is this adoption even real...God reminds me that He is in control.  Russ and I are learning and growing through this wait and I am so thankful for that.

I went for a run last week and just asked God to give me a word.  Russ and I had both been anxious and didn't know for sure why.  Then the phrase "It is well with my soul"  came to mind.  That is my prayer...that no matter what we go through...or how long we would be well with my soul.  PEACE is what I pray.  I pray to be content...I choose to have faith....knowing that when our Lucy comes along...God will lead her to us.

Habakkuk 2:3

"For the vision is yet for the appointed time; it hastens toward the goal and it will not fail.  Though it tarries, wait for it; for it will certainly come, it will not delay."

Deuteronomy 31:8
"The Lord is the one who goes ahead of you; He will be with you.  He will not fail you or forsake you.  Do not fear or be dismayed."

It is Well with My Soul:

When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

It is well, it is well,
With my soul, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
Let this blest assurance control,
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
And hath she'd His own blood for my soul.

It is well, It is well,
With my soul, with my soul
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part but the whole,
It was nailed trough his cross, and I bear it no more,
Bless the Lord, bless the Lord, O my soul!

It is well, It is well
With my soul, with my soul
It is well, it is well, with my soul

Here's to hoping that this will be the week :)  Thank you so much for the support and kind words....we love you guys!!!


Jamie said...

The last moments before you see your baby are always the hardest! Your faith will grow ten fold in this time and God will provide! My seven year old daughter prayed last night that we'd get a call this week... We'll see what happens!
Beneath the Acacia Tree

Alison said...

Praying that God will give ya'll peace as your nearing the end of your wait!!

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Lindsay and Ben said...

You are a rock, Anna. Love you so!

Anonymous said...

I so understand! I am praying for you guys! I promise the pain of the wait all disappears when you hold that precious little one! Praying for you to find strength and peace during the wait!! Love you both!!

in HIS love and mine,
lynn <><