Monday, September 13, 2010

ugh!!!!!!!

WARNING:  Honest post coming from the heart.  You have been warned :)

WE ARE READY FOR OUR REFERRAL :)  The past two weeks have been hard.  I am extremely emotional....not sleeping...and just plain ready to see my daughter's face.  I am trying to be content because in my crazy mind I feel like we won't get the referral until I am content in waiting BUT I am not there today.  You know the feeling when you have gone on vacation and it has been wonderful....but then you wake up on the last day and know you have the long drive home.  And that ride takes for.....e....ver.......That is how I feel today. Ready. Tired.  Emotional. Ready to be done with the waiting.

Praying tomorrow will be the day.  Praying she is home by Christmas.  That has been my dream all along...that we would not spend Christmas 2010 without her.

I wish I had some encouraging words....and tomorrow I am sure I will...but tonight I just don't.  I have been trying to go to sleep for a couple of hours...no such luck.

Also, my glasses are at my in-laws and I had already taken my contacts out SO if you see any typos....just know that it is because I am blind as a bat.

Sidenote:  I love my husband.  We were sitting on the couch tonight and he tells me that he wants to build Lucy a treehouse or a teepee.  I think Teepee won. Why does my infant daughter need a teepee you ask. I have no idea.  But, I love that my husband...her daddy....wants to build her one.

15 comments:

The H Family said...

Hang in there. It's a moment worth waiting for! (I know you know that, but it's really so much more amazing than one can even imagine!)

(Random sidenote, we lived in Columbus, MS until summer of '09, and Tupelo was our "big city". Love to see it mentioned in your blog!)

emily said...

I have been thinking about you. I know a great story awaits and it will all be worth it. But waiting just stinks!! Excited to celebrate with you guys.

Jennifer said...

Oh, Anna! I know it is SO hard waiting to see your daughter's face!! I know you don't know me, but I have been following your blog since you first started the process. In the beginning of our process, I just KNEW we would go Ethiopia, but God ended up leading us to the Special Needs program in China...once you see her face, you will barely be able to remember the waiting!! What originally drew me to look at your blog was that your daughter's name was Lucy and my youngest daughter is Lucy as well. I must say that every time I see that you have posted, I am praying you are announcing sweet Lucy's referral. I will pray that you have peace in the waiting as God's perfect timing unfolds...He loves you so much and has great things in store for your family. Cannot wait to see her face...it is coming soon!!!! Love, Jennifer
www.oursweetleap.blogspot.com

embracedinlove said...

Girl, I know how you feel! I'm just on the flip side of it. I feel like we will NEVER get our home study finished and we will NEVER get our paperwork done. It is driving me bonkers and consuming my thoughts. On top of that, Matt is leaving for Zimbabwe today and I am going to be at a dental conference the second week of October so between those two extended (out of country) tasks, I just don't see us getting our house set up OR getting our papers done. And I am READY to travel to Uganda NOW!!!!!! Ugh. So, I feel you. I know my stuff is from a different side of things but gosh, it still sucks. I believe at this rate she will be a teenager before we are able to pick her up. Sorry for venting on your post.....I'm over it now. Not really.

Anyway, I hope and pray that God gives you amazing peace and that you are able to just rest in Him and His timing. And the teepee is an awesome idea. Haha!

Jamie said...

I have been watching your blog for a referral post! I feel like I've gone completely mad waiting for the phone call... Hopefully this will be the week!
Blessings.
j
www.gfinkfamily.blogspot.com
Beneath the Acacia Tree

Jim and Laura said...

I continue to follow your journey. We received a referral in July and have been suffering through the rainy season for a court date. I feel your frustration and am on the same roller-coaster ride. Continue to believe God's timing and take some time for yourself along the way :)

Laura http://jimlaurajjnikolaus.blogspot.com/

Rebecca said...

The waiting is the hardest, and you know better than I do (we've only been waiting ALMOST 3 months). BUT, I know you're referral is coming soon. I know you'd much rather have it today, and see your Lucy's beautiful face, but it really is coming soon. The wait is almost over!!

http://rebob.blogspot.com

Anna and Russ Polsgrove said...

Thanks friends!!! I am so lucky to have friends in the "blog world" that love us!!!!

Tonya Stultz said...

We are making African ornaments to help raise money for our ET adoption. Someone found my blog www.familystultz.blogspot.com and bought one off it yesterday. She got her referral a couple months ago. She still has no court date due to monsoon season. She is 99% sure she will not be bringing home her baby girl until January. :( So she bought the ornament so at least she'll be represented. There are many out there in your boat, not that it makes it any easier. And then there are people like my husband and I. Have been married for 9 years and haven't been able to conceive. Have fostered 36 children in 2 years and have had 9 failed attempts to adopt through foster care. The last failure just being last Friday. We are broken. But our baby awaits us & I know God is leading us to her! Take care & best wishes.

laura said...

Hi...Thank you for your honesty. I know it is not easy. That call is coming, it will be soon.

Can't wait to read all about it.

Christine said...

I understand. I have walked a mile or two in your shoes...And this is what I KNOW!...It's coming!!! AND when it does....all of "this" (stress, and fear, and frustration, etc...)that you are going through will fade away...and there will be only JOY and PEACE and LOVE....OVERFLOWING the VERY second you set your eyes on that sweet face! I think for some reason, it's hardest in the 11th hour....just when you think you will break...That phone is going to RING! Praying for you and excited to here the GOOD NEWS SOON!!!!

Christine
themathewsfam.net

It Feels Like Chaos said...

Praying your referral comes really soon! We're only at the 5 month mark waiting, so I can only imagine what you must be feeling!

It Feels Like Chaos said...

P.S. Thanks for keeping it real because when/if our wait goes as long as yours, then I won't feel like there is something wrong with me for having a hard time with the wait :) !!!

Alison said...

Hang in there, girl! I know that your referral has to be coming soon!! I can't imagine how it must feel to wait that long though! Lucy is going to be one special little baby girl!

Marty Cooper said...

Sweet Anna, I'm so sorry the waiting has been so hard. My friends the Omaras have been going through similar stuff, and all the red tape can just get crappy sometimes. This is a beautiful calling God has led you and Russ to, and we will be praying that Lucy will come home soon. I can't wait for you to post a family photo on your blog of the 3 of you. It will be precious.

Let's go on a walk sometime. I miss seeing you!